Tuesday, November 25, 2003

I got to see my friend Jen today! She and her husband are here from California, we (Erin and the kids, Mandy) had donuts and hot drinks this morning. I somehow forgot that I had school today at nine, but luckily my fellow classmate called and told me that class had been cancelled, I really lucked out because I wasn't even on my way! hee hee. I left our get together early because I had to finish some homework before the next class.
I found out today that I have to be in a different school next semester and also a different grade. I'm a little sad because there are so many reasons why I want to be at San Tan: the little girl that I take care of goes there (Brynn), the youngest Cornejo boys (Marc and Andy) also go there I've seen them in P.E. a couple of times, Tyler I have seen there he is a buddy for the younger kids, and also because I love the kids in my kindergarten class, I just love everything about that school. I understand that I have to try different grades and I understand that I need to get a feel for a different school but there is just something special about the connection I had with some of the youth group kids because I went to their school. Also my connection with Brynn because I get to see her at school. I know God will take care of me but it just seems so unfair!

Saturday, November 22, 2003

Tonight I got to sing for the Danny Daniels thing, it was neat. He didn't lead worship, I kind of was hoping that he would but I think he is doing that tommorrow. Anyways he was talking about spiritual gifts: the gift of healing, miracles, prophetic words ect. As he was talking I was thinking of a conversation that I had recently with my dad. He asked me if I wanted to go to a Benny Hinn ministry conference he's going to be in Phoenix in February, he said that it would be a great opportunity for me to get healed. Well I am not sure what I believe on his ministry, granted I don't know him, I can see that he does have a heart for God but I don't know if I can go to a place expecting healing, putting all my faith and hope in one event or time. So I told my dad I would pray about it. Well it has been bugging me for awhile, I just don't have a peace about it. But I don't want to hurt my dad either. So anyways Danny D was talking about people how they don't have the gift of healing they are given a gift of healing at that time, so it's not something you have for ever or one person can't have the gift of healing, it is all about God's doing, and if he chooses to use a person then awesome, praise God for it! So at the end he was talking about how he gets words of knowlegde for people or God uses him to speak to people. So I kind of prayed in my mind, "God please have Danny or someone else think of me or call me out so that I can get prayer." And no sooner did I finish when Danny said "someone is trying to play telephone with God, and he hears you." Wow God, you work fast! I got a tugging in my heart to ask Danny about what he thinks about the Benny Hinn minsitry or if he could help me be at peace. He told me he doesn't know Benny, he probally is a great guy. But if Benny heals at all it is because he gets a gift at that time or the people that are working with him get a gift of healing at that time. I finally just told him about what my dad said, and finally fessed up that I was going for a healing for myself. I was almost in tears because I am so confused, and I hate telling people that I have arthritis. Well he asked if he could pray for me, by then I was crying and shaking. He said that he could see that I have lots of doubts and fears. Lots of questions, that he was going to pray for healing but that God would do it on his own time. He also prayed for peace about going to the conference. Yep I was still crying, but I feel relieved to tell someone, I was telling Andre just before I went up there, I'm so scared I don't know if I can ask, because I knew he would pray for me. But God is good, so good. He used Danny to reassure me that he's got my back, he will be my comfort and that he has been there through out my whole time having arthritis.

Friday, November 21, 2003

I was in my intern class at San Tan this morning and it was interesting because the kids were just talking to me about everything you could imagine. We were doing centers and one little boy the only mexican in the class (vladimir) comes up and just hugs me, when I first met him I thought he didn't want anything to do with me, but today I was pleasantly surprised by his display of affection, I am almost in tears because it meant the world to me. And then a little while after that, he says, Ms. Cela I no no what I doing! He is a doll! OHH!I know he is just learning english but his accented english makes everything he says so cute!
Another little girl told me that she was going to get a puppy, her parent's told her that she could. I asked her how long does it take to grow up? About twenty minutes she says matter of factly. If only that could be true! I've been asking for a puppy for awhile now, I am hoping for a christmas, birthday, graduation present with a puppy in a bow. I really want a Mastiff, but I know I have to be patience. The thing about a dog for me is that they demonstrate what unconditional love is all about, no matter what time you come home. They are loyal, great companions, they can protect you, and most of all they can be a part of the family. I am praying that someday I will get my Samson/Trinity whichever hopefully Samson. But until then I want to be thankful for what I do have: great parents, good school, great church, good jobs and a relationship with God.

Thursday, November 20, 2003

Today I was reminded of what God's love is like. No matter what you are going through he will take time to listen, love, and care for you because that is just how he is. I was kind of grumpy today for some reason and what I needed to do was pray before I went to take care of Brynn, I did a quick prayer but that was about it. Well Brynn decided it was going to be disagree with Cela day, I should have known. But even though in the beginning it was a little hard I just had to lay myself aside for a bit and think of Brynn, she needs me to be a role model not a drill sergeant or the evil nanny, she needs to be loved and cared for. My night ended up being good, I just had to refocus on what my heart was saying. Some verses that I am reminded of tonight are:
Let love and faithfulness never leave you; bind them around your neck, write them on a tablet of your heart. Proverbs 3:3
The Lord delights in those who fear him, who put their hope in his unfailing love. Psalm 146:11
How happy are those who know their need for God. Matthew 5:3
Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourself. Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. Be joyful in hope, patience in affliction, faithful in prayer. Romans 12:9-12

Wednesday, November 19, 2003

So I am sitting here thinking how cool is this?! An online journal! I try to keep a regular journal but I don't think I have written in it for a long time.
I am thinking of the things that God has been doing in my life recently. I have been so blessed to be able to go to ASU East's education program, I love it, I didn't realize that being a teacher is so much work. The plus is ultimately you get to see kids grow and learn, also you are able to give them love and support that they might not be getting at home, that to me is so worth all the time spent learning and figuring out how to be the best teacher there is.
Let's see I have been praying for a long time to find a job that has good hours that I would enjoy doing. I found through the HOPE Program a couple of good jobs but once I started with a family I still couldn't get a consistant schedule, and that was hard because I only got payed once a month and gas money wasn't there. God heard my plea thankfully (it's funny because I was starting to think that he just didn't hear me) maybe it was also because I actually started to do something about this situation. Well Brenda has a nanny agency and it worked out that this one family needed someone. This job is such a blessing, not only for financial reasons but because the mom is trying to figure out stuff about God and I get to share with her some of my feelings. Also I get a chance to work on my cooking skills, try new recipes, learn how to become a wife of nobility.
One more thing for the night, I am so blessed to be a part of the Gilbert Vineyard. There are so many amazing people there, I loved this church even before the merge and now I get to love it more. Tonight in youth, I was reminded of how much I totally love having both East Valley youth and Gilbert youth as one. Allyson as you might know is like the hip I don't have, hee hee. She totally blesses me, but tonight as she was singing I was thinking of how the angels worship Jesus, and I think it would be similar to how Allyson worships. I was looking around and had to smile (with pride) because I saw Kristen and Liz lifting their hands worshipping. It is so neat to see teenagers lay all their cares aside and give their all to God. It is so beautiful, they are so beautiful because of it. And as a leader I am so proud of the growth that these youth are experiencing. I should go now but I just want to say that I am so blessed, and sometimes I forget all that God is doing in my life but as I write I can see that he is so good and faithful, thanks God. YOUR AWESOME! Cela