Thursday, April 29, 2004

Two classes done with, two more to go. Right on! I so need a break! Well for a couple of weeks I will get to sleep in then I will be working. I think I have all A's for my ASU classes. I know I am not getting an A in lecture for geology, I just hate taking written tests. Those are the worst for me. But I am getting an A in lab which is good, means I am kind of getting it.
There is this one girl in my lecture for geology she sits next to me, we talk all the time, I asked her what she was doing for he weekend and she says she was going to ask someone out on a date. I was like "Wow a bold woman, who is the lucky guy?" Well under her breath she was like, "I date women" so I tried not to show my shock but I don't think I did a good job. I then started feeling uncomfortable but then I was thinking what would Jesus do in this situation, he would love her no matter what right? So I am trying to show her God's love but now she is sick and hasn't been coming to class. I hope she's ok, I hope that I didn't offend her somehow.

Saturday, April 24, 2004

My family and I went to a wedding today, it was a beautiful ceremony. It was a lady that Andre and my parent's know from the YMCA. The guy actually sang to his girl, it was in spanish so I didn't understand what he was saying very well, but his wife's name is Flor or Flower and he was thanking God in the song for giving us Flowers. It was awesome! Me and my brothers were planning for the future, it was kind of funny. Gabe said he is going to be real good at piano by then so he will play a song for us my husband and I. Andre says that he wants to scuba dive for the reception dinner in his wedding which will be lobsters, yeah right that's a lot of lobster! It's just funny talking about getting married and stuff like that when you don't even have someone in your life yet. The odd thing about this wedding though was that they didn't give rings and they didn't dance at the end. No dancing! I couldn't believe it because they are Mexicans! Oh well. It was still a good reception.

Thursday, April 22, 2004

What is Love?

A group of professional people posted this question to a group of 4-8 year olds. "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broad and deeper than anyone could have imagined:

When my grandma got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandpa does it for her now all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love. Rebecca - age 8

When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouths. Billy-age 4

Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving Cologne and they go out and smell each other. Kari- age 5

Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French Fries without making them give you any of theirs. Chrissy- age 6

Love is what makes you smile when you're tired. Terri- age 4

Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK. Danny- age 7

Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My mommy and daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss. Emily- age 8

Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen. Bobby- age 7

If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate.
Nikka- age 6

Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday. Noelle- age 7

Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well. Tommy- age 6

During my piano recital, I was on stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore. Cindy- age 8

My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night. Clare- age 6

Love is when mommy gives daddy the best piece of chicken. Elaine- age 5

Love is when mommy sees daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford. Chris- age 7

Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day. Mary Ann- age 4

When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars
come out of you. Karen- age 7

Love is when mommy sees daddy on the toilet and doesn't think it's gross. Mark- age 6

You really shouldn't say "I LOVE YOU" unless you mean it. But if you
mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget. Jessica- age 8

And the winner was a 4 year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly man who had just lost his wife. When the child saw the man cry, the little boy went over into the man's yard and climbed on top of the man's lap and just sat there. When the boy's mother asked him what he'd said to the neighbor, the little boy said, "Nothing, I just helped him cry." I love you!

Sunday, April 18, 2004

I've been thinking lately about life and why things happen the way they do. It's all for a reason I know, but wouldn't it be nicer if could see the layout or plans ahead of us? I guess then God wouldn't have a way to have us completely trust him. Maybe that's why we can't know right away, it's cool though when we do see why things had to be the way they were to see what God had ahead and to see how going that direction helped us grow or learn something.
I am praying that our youth will step up a notch in there walks with God. I mean I understand that the teenage years are years with a lot of different changes, pressures, etc. But what an opportunity to really grow in a deep relationship with Jesus now. The youth are the ones who are going to reach different generations, how cool is that? I just pray that God will use me to help them, even more so. I love our kids so much, they mean the world to me. Maybe I should let them know that more, maybe I can tell them that when they step up and pray that I almost want to cry because it's so neat to see. I think it is good to let them know that they are special in their unique ways, whether it is being on the worship team, or helping out with the kids for mops, being the janitor, or someone who reaches out to the new kids, they are all awesome when they use there gifts! I guess we as the "leaders" need to step up and find ways to let the kids know that we are so proud of them for just showing up to youth. Thanks Lord for the kids you have given us. Thank you that you are bringing in the ones you have into our lives. I pray that you will be with each and every one of them, tend to all their needs. Let them know that you love them so much and you will do anything to have a love relationship with them. Use us leaders to do your will, not ours but yours. Help us build a nation of prayer warriors, worshippers, and lovers of you.
I have to write my favorite worship song every time I hear or sing it I just want to cry, we are so unworthy, so undeserving, but God still loves us. It's Faithful Father:
Father, I can't explain this kind of love
This kind of grace
I know I still break your heart and yet you run to welcome me

This is my song of praise to you
For who you are and all that you do
From the moment my life began
You have been faithful

Father, I love the way you hold me close and say my name
I know when my life is through my heart will find it's home in you
This is my song of praise to you
For who you are and all that you do
From the moment my life began
You have been faithful

You will be faithful, forever faithful, my Father

Saturday, April 10, 2004

Mom and I just came back from Park Regency, I've been putting it off going there (the nursing home) not for good reasons mind you, just because I am scared. Well my Ruthy isn't there anymore, that's exactly what I was afraid of. She pasted away a couple of months ago, I guess it's a good thing because she wanted to go. She said that what's the point of living when you are ninety-one and you've already lived a full life? I loved her so much, I loved sitting and listening to her tell me stories of how she was a pastor's daughter, and how her momma was a singer. She would sometime forget what she told me in the middle of a sentence and tell the story all over again but it didn't matter. She was a stinker, she wouldn't let anyone in to talk to her besides me and a few others. She never went to the activities we had going on, so sometimes I would sing to her songs that we sang at the sing-a-long, she would always ask how old I was because I shouldn't know those songs because I am too young. She loved to read and spell, I took her to a spelling contest that the other residents where doing but it was no competition because she knew every word, and I even looked a hard one up in the dictionary! My favorite thing about her was she had one tooth, she said that as long as she has that one she doesn't need to get dentures. She also said that her dad told her that if you rub gin on your gums you'd get a whole third set of teeth, so she was waiting for her third set to get in. Her favorite thing to eat was green olives, chocolate, and cheese so of course I would spoil her when she was running low. She also told me that she wished her father could have met me cuz he would like me a lot, I loved to look in her eyes when she said that because you could see how much she loved me then. I could sit and hold her hand forever. I could of had one more chance if I went sooner to see her. She will always hold a special place in my heart, she will be my Ruthy. I was there to bless her but in the end she was the one who made my life better, she was the one who no matter what kind of day it was could make me feel so special and loved. I'll miss you Ruthy, thanks for all the good memories. I love you.

Monday, April 05, 2004

It was mom's birthday today and every minute she was home she reminded us of it. It's kind of cute because it is her special day, she didn't know what time she was born so daddy got her birth certificate and found out she was born at 3 am. My grandma doesn't even remember that! We took mom out to Islands for dinner it was fun. Then we got home and had some left over cake from the surprise birthday party we gave her on Saturday and of course sang to her. Another year younger she likes it when we say that! :)
I went to my interning class today seems like forever since I have been there, they did an activity were they had to write on paper a question like: who is your favorite singer? And each one had to go around and write their answers on each other's papers if that makes sense, then graph the results. One of the guys said who is your favorite wrestler but nobody knew wrestler because they don't watch wrestling. I watched WWF or whatever it's called with Jojo all the time when I went to Grand Canyon. We would hang out in the dorm and watch Goldberg he was our favorite wrestler. Jojo's brother Kofe was married to Jerry Kalangilo's (I don't know how to spell his last name) daughter so once we got to go to WWF and we had a blast it was so much fun! Anyways, I was telling the boy who asked that question that I like Goldberg and he was like "does he even wrestle anymore?" I was like, "I don't know!" I was trying to be with it and know what I am talking about just to get shot down, I almost was cool for a little bit. hee hee.
I keep seeing puppies everywhere it's just not fair. Everybody knows I want a mastiff puppy why does it get rubbed in my face by the whole world? Well not the whole world, but I've been seeing lots of puppies everywhere, then dad or mom comes home and tells me a story about a puppy. I think it's intentional they want to see how many buttons to push before I go crazy. But if I did it wouldn't matter I still wouldn't get my Samson. Again I have to be patience, (sigh).