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Thursday, September 29, 2005

As you know my life is all about songs and music, this week I have been listening to a cd that I got from DeeDee after the worship gathering, umm I don't remember the name of the band though. Anyways the first song on there is brilliant, it was just what I needed to hear this week, so I've been playing it over and over, :) It talks about in the midst of our heartache and trials we will still follow God no matter what:

All who are weak, All who are weary
Come to the rock, Come to the fountain
All who have sailed, On the rivers of heartache
Come to the sea, Come on be set free

If you lead me Lord I will follow
Where You lead me Lord I will go
Come and heal me Lord, I will follow
Where You lead me Lord, I will go
I will go, I will go


All who are weak, All who are weary
Come to the rock, Come to the fountain
All who have climbed, On the mountains of heartache
Reach to the stars, Come on give Your life

All who are weak, All who are weary
All who are tired, All who are thirsty
All who have failed, All who have broken
Come to the rock, Come to the fountain

I can't get this song out of my head and every time I sing it I want to jump for joy because God is my rock and salvation, he is the one who loves me unconditionally, he is the one who no matter how weak or tired I am will give me strength. That's just amazing.

Monday, September 26, 2005

Sometimes life doesn't go as planned or how you would like it to go, it doesn't matter how hard you try to achieve or keep something God always has his own plan. So what happens when you loose something that's important to you? What happens when life doesn't deal you the set of cards that you were hoping for? I am reminded of the song from Evita when she has to deal with the trials of life and love.
EVA: I don't expect my love affairs to last for long
Never fool myself that my dreams will come true
Being used to trouble I anticipate it
But all the same I hate it--wouldn't you?
So what happens now?
CHE Another suitcase in another hall
EVA so what happens now?
CHE Take your picture off another wall
EVA Where am I going to?
CHE You'll get by, you always have before
EVA Where am I going to? Time and time again I've said that I don't care
That I'm immune to gloom, that I'm hard through and through
But every time it matters all my words desert me
So anyone can hurt me--and they do
So what happens now?
CHE Another suitcase in another hall
EVA So what happens now?
CHE Take your picture off another wall
EVA Where am I going to?
CHE You'll get by you always have before
EVA Where am I going go? Call in three months time and I'll be fine I know
Well maybe not that fine, but I'll survive anyhow I won't recall the names
and places of each sad occasion But that's no consolation--here and now
So what happens now?
CHE Another suitcase in another hall
EVA So what happens now?
CHE Take your picture off another wall
EVA Where am I going to?
CHE You'll get by, you always have before
EVA Where am I going to?
CHE Don't ask anymore

I am praying real hard that life and friendships, job situations, etc. will not effect me so much that I am not able to do God's work, I mean it is fine to deal with all this stuff but I can't be stuck here, I got to move on, I got to believe that there is so much more out there for me if I just believe.
Lord, I ask you to help me right now, help me keep on trusting you for my life, help me not to dwell on the things that aren't going my way, help me to keep blessing you for all the amazing things you do. I love you Lord.

Tuesday, September 20, 2005


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My life right now is all about waiting, it is just lovely. I interviewed last week for two jobs as a teacher's assisant for two different schools, I await the results this week. I took my teaching test to get my teaching certificate last Saturday so I am waiting for those results in a couple of weeks. I am glad that those things are done but I'm dying here! Maybe it is because I have the whole morning to think and basically do nothing till work. I mean I do stuff in the house, occasionally go to lunch with a friend, but I'm just bored! I want a job, don't get me wrong I love being able to nanny still, I love my boys, but it is only a couple of hours a day. That helps a lot though. Weird aren't I? I'm asking for work, that's just funny to me.

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Went to Gabe's soccer game with my family tonight, Dad actually was feeling better and wanted us all to go. Gabe was awesome, he scored a goal, he made it for most valuable player of the week in his region I think, so he should have his picture either on the school website or the paper. That's very exciting I think. This game there was a lot of fighting, the coach of the other team almost got kicked off the field, that was pretty entertaining. My brother got a bloody lip from getting hit, it was a violent game tonight.
I got to hang out with Coraline and Alfred today, I got to study for a calculus test that I wasn't even taking, I got to play tetris on Coraline's phone, and then we had lunch in the MCC cafeteria. Ok let me tell you why this was cool, for one I was at school and didn't have to go to classes, for two I was hanging out with friends, it was fun.
So I was praying about my job situation, and what happens today? I got a call from Towne Meadows Elementary for a 4th grade instrustional assistant job, I interview with them on Friday. I am happy about that, we will see what happens. This teaches me though not to doubt God because he is always faithful to complete his works. No matter what happens if I trust him it will turn out good.

Monday, September 12, 2005

On Saturday Andre and I visited my dad at the hospital we got there at ten and my mom said he was going to get discharged at eleven. I was confused because they didn't do anything yet, they said something about gallstones or maybe appendicitus, but I guess what it was was an infected kidney. So he got to come home which was very cool because it was his birthday, as soon as he got home he went straight to bed and slept for five hours. I remember how nice it was after my hip surgery to be in my own bed, it was a little uncomfortable still though because I had to be strapped down with this big triangle pillow in between my legs so that I wouldn't turn and hurt myself while I was sleeping. That's besides the point, anyways I'm glad dad is home instead of the hospital, he lost like 12 pounds during last week. Mom wasn't doing well either she was so worried, she slept at the hospital the whole time so when she got home she went straight to bed too, but she slept longer than dad. I'm making sure he is eating well, I feel like a personal nurse, I like it though because I am needed. :) It's funny because dad is asking me questions about when I got off the morphine and if I went through this symptom or how it felt.
We are very blessed to have lots of people who care, thanks everyone for your prayers and visits to the hospital. I was blessed and so was dad.
Oh quick update on the job situation, I didn't get the job, they had a tough decision (so they say) and they picked someone else. That's ok, I wasn't sure I wanted to have my first job in junior high anyways. So I applied for two other jobs and am waiting to see what happens. This Saturday is my teaching test so I will need prayers. I'm feeling a bit frustrated by the getting a job thing, I know God's timing is perfect and he knows what he is doing but I don't get it. I need to fully trust him with the rest of my life, and trust that his will is perfect, why is that so hard?
Time to take care of dad, love you all!

Friday, September 09, 2005

Mom called a bit ago and said that they are going to leave Dad's kidneys alone for now, appareantly he has gall stones and they are going to look at his appendix (I don't know how to spell that) but yeah, it will be his birthday tomorrow, what a sad way to spend it.

Dad is going to get his kidney removed today, his kidney stones passed on Wednesday but he was still in extreme pain, they drained his kidney no luck. So yesterday they did some more tests and he needs to get it taken out. That is what is happening today, so please pray for dad because he is very weak right now, he needs to know that God is with him, he hasn't eaten for three days so he needs to stay strong for one more. Pray that things go well and he will have a quick recovery. Thanks.

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

The day before yesterday my father started to feel funny, he had this intense cramping in his stomach and he could barely walk. So he ended up going to the emergency room at 2 in the morning, they put him on an IV that had morphine in it. Turns out he has a stone in his kidney, they say that is like having a baby it is that much pain. Well he came home was a little doped up but was feeling better but today his pain is increasing, so I am asking for all those who read this to pray for my dad, I'm going to take him to the E.R. now so I could use all the prayers I can get. Thanks.